As we approach the one year anniversary of that fateful day, July 31, 2015, we can’t help but be flooded with waves of emotions. First, we have and are dealing with the emotions of experiencing events that just a year ago, Justus was eagerly involved in… his aunt’s wedding celebration… his TMNT birthday party… the fourth of July fireworks.
Each event reminds us of two contrasting truths like two sides of the same coin. Like so much of the Christian walk, we find ourselves wrestling with the tension created by these opposing truths and warring emotions. Like the introduction to a heavy weight fight… “In this corner”… we have floods of joy watching him run around knowing we came so very, very close to losing him. And of course in the other corner… we have the reality that he’s not in the same place he was a year ago!
So should we be happy, or should we be sad. And the real answer is… YES! I am overjoyed every time I get to be with Justus. When I watch him walk around, when I hear him laugh, when I see him kiss his mommy and daddy – I can’t help but smile! But I’ve come to grips with the reality that God is ok that I’m also sad. More importantly, He’s ok that my daughter and son-in-law are sad at times.
We’ve talked a lot about the saying, “The Moon is Round!” As you probably know we are selling a T-shirt with the official “The Moon is Round” logo on it. That saying reminds us that God is the same yesterday, today and forever. He never changes. But it also reminds us, that we aren’t God! We spend a lifetime dealing with our own shortcomings and flaws; shortcomings that get exposed when storms like Justus hit!
Thankfully God is patient with us as we cry out in pain and frustration and even anger. The same God that is good and able says to us,
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” ~ Jesus
- His seizures are better, but we continue to pray for them to completely cease.
- He still isn’t able to swallow, eat or talk (which of course means he can’t sing).
- Alyse and Jason just found out their medical insurance company has gone bankrupt.
- Pray for these next few weeks and the associated emotions.
- Alyse has gone back to work part time – please pray for her.
- Justus starts kindergarten this fall.
- Wisdom for the process of getting a service dog.