We’ve talked a lot about Providence over the course of this journey with Justus; the idea that God is sovereign and governing the affairs of His creation. We’ve certainly sensed His sovereignty as we prayed for our little warrior and his battle with encephalitis. We’ve talked about God’s providence in the good times and the bad times. And we’ve talked about Providence as it applies to everyone’s involvement in the journey… including I might add, yours! Here is a post from Ginger, someone you’ve heard from before (Ginger), one of the amazing people that make up onsite #TeamJustus.
As I headed back to Portland for my fourth trip, this time for Justus’ cranial flap surgery, I had a lot of time to think about the journey so far and what was coming ahead for this trip. I booked my plane ticket so long ago, first for Alyse’s birthday and secondly, for Justus’ surgery and unlike my prior trips in the “dark days” which were as quickly as I could escape to Portland and as often as I could come to help; the days leading up to this trip I felt the anxiety of the impending surgery and the struggle of my life at home versus what I was going to on-site for #TeamJustus.
Now Justus has completed his surgery and is back at Randall where he is hard at work again as if he didn’t just have major surgery 3 days ago and the next time I see him, he’ll likely be at home continuing his recovery and I’m on a plane headed back home. For many of us who have been on-site for #TeamJustus there is this unexplainable tension of our lives at home and our lives in the bubble of this amazing community. A lot of us have spoken about it and struggled to articulate the balance of how we live in both spaces at the same time. A wonderfully wise member of #TeamJustus said it best that “our hearts are inexplicably woven together forever” after all we have been through which is so true of those on-site and in this greater #TeamJustus community.
Early on, David and Kelli said to the on-site #TeamJustus crew that they firmly believed God had hand chosen each one of us to be there and to consider that. I still don’t think I have an answer to that for myself and it’s something that even in the past 90 days or so has continued to be on my heart. When I met Alyse and the Pritchard family 16 years ago and immediately bonded with them, of course I had no idea the last couple months would be part of our story together. What I do know is that God, the wonderful storyteller and master conductor brought us together then and now. I have been fortunate enough to be able to see God’s hand in a few relationships in my life and giggle about our divinely orchestrated meetings and then how their friendship and love has so clearly played a specific role in my life at a specific time.
The journey is far from over for #TeamJustus, but we can feel the next chapter coming up on the horizon and I know, personally, again I have anxiety about what that means for me. Everyone in this community has served to be a powerful group of cheerleaders for the on-site #TeamJustus team as prayers were felt, encouraging words on Facebook were read and generous tangible gifts were sent. So I am challenged to continue in prayer for Justus, Alyse, Jason and Amaya and all of you as well as considering what this means for my journey with God. As I was thinking about this community for the last few days I kept coming back to Hebrews 12:1 “Therefore since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off the everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.”
So I pray for all of you and your journey and the race ahead of you as well as our little ninja, Justus.