Day 69-17 – Feeding Our Spiritual Appetite

Justus continues to work hard, getting stronger and showing improvement. He is still struggling with mouth stuff (not the technical term) managing his secretions and coughing. He’s still not really able to open his mouth much, which of course will be necessary if he wants to eat and talk. The most exciting progress has been his ability to sit on his own (with someone guarding his every move) and taking steps. Obviously he’s not walking on his own, but with someone holding him he’s able to make the walking motion, which is the surest way to get Kelli crying! But thank-you for your continued prayers for the little warrior and all of his hard work.

One quick thought devotional thought Justus’ progress made me think of.

Matthew 4:3-5 (NIV) The tempter came to him and said, “If you are the Son of God, tell these stones to become bread.” Jesus answered, “It is written: ‘Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.’”

I know some of you have joined us on some of the days we’ve fasted and prayed. Well this verse comes at the end of 40 days of fasting for Jesus. Just like he does with you and me, the enemy attacks us where we are weakest. So if you have an anger problem, I guarantee, you will be tempted to let anger get the best of you. If you struggle with pride, then the opportunity to allow your pride to get out of whack will surely happen. Here in Matthew, Jesus (fully human and fully God) is hungry! So the enemy tempts him to fill his physical need. With Justus, I still find myself wondering, Lord 69 days, isn’t that long enough? My impatience with God and His Providence (if you missed yesterday’s episode it was all about Providence – leads me sometimes to want to take matters into my own hands or to grow impatient with the medical staff.

People keep asking if Justus is going to make a full recovery. My correct answer is yes, because however recovered Justus gets is his full recovery! But what I really say is, “How far and how fast is up to God.” Compared to how he’s doing everywhere else, it seems like his mouth is behind. Then fear enters in and I start thinking, what if he’s never able to do anything more. And again the correct response to that is, great I’m so glad he’s doing as well as he’s doing. But honestly I worry about what he won’t be able to do. Then I remember Matthew 4 and I remember, it’s not what he will eat physically from hear on out that matters… it’s what he’s able to consume spiritually that really matters. And of course that throws up a big mirror in my face as I continue to struggle to keep my girlish figure and often neglect the time I spend in God’s word. This week as we pray for the fact that Justus can’t feed his face, let it remind us to ask how we are doing feeding our spiritual appetite!