Day 102-50 – The Look of Determination

If you’ve followed this journey closely then you might remember Day 13 – post #1 ( I shared a verse from Matthew 6:22-23 ~

“The eye is the lamp of the body. If your eyes are healthy, your whole body will be full of light. But if your eyes are unhealthy, your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light within you is darkness, how great is that darkness!”

I shared an interaction we had with a veteran pediatrician (since that post we’ve introduced you to Dr. Bob). This was a tense part of our journey. Honestly it creates a little angst in me just rereading the account. But while Justus was in his medically induced coma, Dr. Bob said something that has stuck with us this entire journey. He said, “I’ve lost all of my ways of examining him.” He explained the machines spit out numbers, but they are just numbers. But here is what he said that we’ll not soon forget. He said, “The only thing I have to tell me how he’s doing, are his eyes.” And literally for many, many days, they would watch numbers and check his eyes.

My question to you as you look at this picture is this; what do you see in Justus’ eyes now? Obviously a rhetorical question that requires no answer, especially if you were to think back to Day 13! I chose this picture because I see that familiar look in my grandson’s eyes… that look of wonder… that look of curiosity… that look of desire to explore and to play and to conquer. I don’t know if it will be next week, next month, or next year… but I look at those eyes and I see a boy determined to get back.

It’s still God’s call. We still trust the Lord and His providence. But this picture increases my resolve to pray for Justus’ complete healing. It’s exactly like when we were in the darkest of days at Doernbecher only different J! What I mean is this. When the little warrior was fighting for his life, we prayed unashamedly to the Lord, asking and expecting Him to heal our ninja. When it got really tense and hope was all but gone, we prayed harder, but continued to trust a sovereign and loving God (God is able and God is good). Now I feel we are to do the same thing. I’m praying my heart out, begging the Lord and believing for Justus to run and sing and beat pots and pans and dance again. But I trust a sovereign and loving God for the outcome (God is able and God is good)!

He’s still struggling to move his jaw, to swallow, to move his left arm, to communicate… so we continue to ask for your prayers. But it’s hard to look at this picture and not see hope! It’s hard to look at this picture and not think as Matthew 6 says… “If your eyes are healthy, your whole body will be full of light.” Lord thanks for the light in Justus’ eyes. I ask that you continue the healing that is taking place. I pray that you would touch his little body and restore him to wholeness! You are able and you are good and we rest in your Sovereignty tonight!

Thank-you #TeamJustus. We love you!